Dear Fontanel,
Over the past year and more, I have come to deeply regret my words of resentment and my rash behaviour toward you in your last weeks here. Nothing justified them, and I did not give you your space, nor the respect you deserved as someone I called a friend.
Not wishing to repeat my mistake, I have looked for you only to apologize. There is nothing here but sand in the wind but still I see you in dreams sometimes and we share a smile or a laugh. And while I can never be sure you will receive my apology, I feel I must at least try to repair the damage I did. And if per chance you see my words here, then that much might be right that I have wronged, or at least you shall know that I mean you all the best.
I have lived here in San Diego now for a long while. I am always grateful for the extra shade of wonder you added here. I still see your beauty reflected in every stretch of sand and every flower and every tree in this region of warmth and light. The gifts you gave me I am blessed with always.
I am so sorry for the wrongs I did you, and would that I could take them back I would. I have never felt it likely that I will see you again, but unlike so many bonds that have broken, some part of this one has, despite changing attentions and feelings, remained. To that part of myself I owe these words.
love,
Jade